Thursday, May 31, 2007
THANK YOU, FATHER
Thank you, Father, for all You have given me,
much more than I could even count.
For sunlight that streams into my window
and warms my weary heart.
For moonlight on the nights I called out to You
and let You wash away my tears.
For people who love me when I seem most unlovable
but when I need their love the most.
For giving them the grace.
For holding my heart when it is trembling.
For being that guiding Light when I am lost in the
dark, with nowhere to go.
For caring enough to send the very best.
For the peace that my prayers are answered.
For the power you give to such a weak soul as mine
when I reach out and touch you.
When I say "Dear God..." and You flow through me
and suddenly everything makes sense again.
For taking away the confusion when my heart is
aching and when I do not understand.
For soothing the fears that plague me so I can
hardly move.
For putting a smile on my face and laughter in my
heart at the strangest times.
For music which causes my very soul to sing
and soar on the clouds towards You.
For eyes to see the beauty of Your world,
each towering tree and misty sunset, each smiling face.
For voices which communicate love.
To a heart so dry and hungering, they are like water.
For being the foremost of those voices, Lord,
and the One who causes the rest to sing.
For the thrill of a new idea.
For the sweet serenity of a prayer answered, a
sweetness I hold close to me like a treasure, and
I say "My God loves me."
For loving me enough to not answer all my prayers.
For wisdom to know what's best for me,
and the never-ending love to always dispose it.
For miracles, and the joy of knowing You ever deeper.
For loving me in the midst of my sin and bestowing blessings
I could never deserve.
For the peace that enfolds me
with the simple knowledge that
"Jesus cares."
For having the awesome power to move even the most
formidable mountains.
Mountains against which I struggle and rage and
cry, they are too big for me and I stand defeated.
But You who made the stars and the earth and all
the heavens can move them with the snap of a
finger. And leave me awe-struck with nothing to do
but bow down to You majesty
with "Praise the Lord!" on my lips.
And you say,
"I'm not through with you yet, my child.
Show me the next mountain..."
For the great adventure of a life lived with You!
Thank You for being there when my spirit cries
For wiping the tears away from my eyes
For holding my heart close
For loving me when I need it the most
For touching me with moonlight
When I call out to You in the empty night
For the stars and the peace and for my tears
And the feeling of You that surrounds me, soothing my fears
For the times when You have sustained me
And I didn't even know it was You,
too blind to see that over all I do
is the guiding touch of Your hand
Jesus, thank you for allowing me to understand
wow.
ciao.
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Friday, May 11, 2007
haha i love rascal flatts! their songs have nice lyrics. and of course "what hurts the most", the class' favourite emo song! courtesy of jeslin :) hoho still rmb that time we went to east coast park... we just played that song on speakers and all the girls started bouncing to the music, right in front of a bike shop (which was playing its own music haha)!
but yea their songs have nice lyrics! though the melodies are all roughly samesame.
this song! the lyrics can make you cry. ellsworth.
Grandma burned the biscuits
Nearly took the house down with her.
Now she's in assisted livin'
We all knew that day would come.
We knew she was to gone to drive
The day she parked on I-65.
Found her on the shoulder cryin'
She didn't know where she was.
Its like her mind just quit.
Oh but bring up grandpa-
its like someone flipped a switch.
A front porch light and a blue Desota,
Couple a straws and a coca cola:
You can see it all goin' down.
A handsome boy in army green
A tear on his face- down on a knee,
Shaky voice- a diamond ring should put you in that town.
Tomorrow she won't remember what she did today,
But just ask her about Ellsworth, Kansas, 1948.
She takes out his medals,
A cigar box of letters.
Sits and scatters pictures,
Black and whites of days gone by.
We started losin' her when she lost him,
But to hear her carry on you'd swear she's seventeen again
Football games and leaves a'cracklin'
Walkin' her home in his letter jacket,
You can see it all goin' down.
A perfect night on a front porch glider,
Saying goodnight for the next 3 hours.
Her tired eyes glow wild and bright
When she talks about that town.
Tomorrow she won't remember what she did today,
But just ask her about Ellsworth, Kansas 1948.
While the world is fading all around her
Sharin' a sundae at the counter
He's goin' on and on about her
But she's right there right now
Tomorrow she won't remember what she did today
But just ask her about Ellsworth, Kansas 1948
and others! like "stand" and "my wish" and "He ain't the leavin' kind"
take care everyone.
ciao.
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Monday, April 02, 2007
yesterday was april fool's day. grin.
haha didn't plan anything! mmm next year should put in more effort in tricking people! but hoho managed to trick tink! a bit la. but hahahaha! and man i remember in sec3... during april fool's. sandy and i planned this awesome scheme to fool rachel! haha we were such meanopokks! yea i think we planned it during philo haha! yes anyway we pretended that we got into a fight during philo! (cos rachel was in the other half of the class) and then throughout the rest of the day we were daoing each other... whenever rachel asked what happened we would just growl "you ask her la!" and poor rachel was caught in the middle looking so troubled! hahahaha but it was super funny! cos whenever i looked back where sandy was sitting we would start laughing and i would have to turn away before rachel noticed :) and! it was so planned that we even got our classmates to act as if something really happened! haha so she would ask other classmates in our half of the class, and they would shake their heads. LOL.
ahhh good times :)
can't remember how she found out that we were fooling her though! haha but ahhh miss fooling around with sandy. and we were supposed to shoot our music video! titanic and boulevard of broken dreams! emo people :D
and in rg we would always come up with sth to fool the teachers... i think 401 once swapped classes with 402 during ss lesson or sth... and we would all hide in cupboards! yea in sec3 i was hiding in a cupboard, then when my ss teacher came in i came out and rah-ed at her. lol!
ohman i miss rg. carefree times! esp in sec2 and 3 hoho! singing maroon5 songs with mel, fighting with drumsticks every morning, pngteh hamper for august babies, nice long talks after school with dino and rachel, making dino laugh her head off during rs meetings (driving her up the wall!).... ahhhhhhhhhhhh i miss rg. great times!
haha this post is nostalgic! but it isnt sad :) happy memories!
ohyes and writing letters to kiddo! hahaha at one point in time we went crazy and started writing and passing each other 5 letters a day or sth... after every class lol! and also writing each other super long letters! think i wrote her an exercise book once... and this really long paper thing that unrolled and was taller than her! that was in sec3... hohoho :) and comics about calamari and penguins!
nice memories make me smile!
haha but stuff have changed now. still! i love my friends. wanna catch up wanna catch up wanna catch up!
now in rj! hahaha i love my class. not really close to them, but i think its one of the best classes around. and i'm really really really glad i'm in 08S03R! the character and personality of the class is just so... nice and right somehow. looking at other classes which have their own character, hahaha i really love S03R. indescribable, but nice. mmm dunno whether i'll be attached to rj by the end of 2years, but we'll see!
mmm today during math class. i'm glad for my form teacher as well. he used to be dj's form teacher! he's a good guy. and i like his math lessons, very clear! yea he invited the class over to his house on good friday, to join his cell for dinner. ohmannnn when i heard that i was :)! then jiening and mandy said cannot, cos they're inviting the class to go cornerstone on good friday for planetshakers! and when i heard that i was !!!! started bouncing in my chair hahahaha! ahhh i want both. but :) yay anyway.
hoho and geog is done! finished! finito!
volcanoes... man they are so powerful. so so powerful. and volcanic ash released in the stratosphere causes brilliant sunsets and twilights! red, streaks of green even. i wanna see... but it causes so much destruction. mmm.
when i grow up i wouldnt mind being a philosopher. or a geographer, going around countries and helping people. yea i think i would like that quite alot. so many people in the world...
so cool. philosopher. geographer. cool. philographer.
mmm. hope everyone has been doing well yea? if things get too stressing or anything and if you need someone, can come find me! not sure if i'm adequate though. haha take care you all.
mmm so many things to learn, attitudes to change, bondages to get over! really so many things to learn. bit by bit!
SMILE EVERYONE! :D show me your pretty teeth! haha.
ah this is a rare happy post!
ciao.
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Sunday, April 01, 2007
Oh Lord, I praise You and lift up Your name. Sometimes, I am just overwhelmed and feel so helpless. Problems, circumstances, challenges, burdens for loved ones, concerns for the body of Christ...an overloaded mind, just push me to my mental and physical limits. But You, Oh Mighty One and Light of the World, are there to remind me to let go of all that. You ARE the light that shines in the darkness, my hope, my comfort, my peace, my sustainer, my caretaker. I just want to thank YOU today for that. I don't stop often enough to reflect on You and to appreciate You. You are worthy of honor and praise. I love You and thank You for everything. In Jesus' name, amen.
its so accurate, apt. mmm.
oh yea and these prayers are from a daily devotional called prime time with God. if you want it and cannot find it, tell me, i forward it to you! yea its very good.
mmm.
ciao.
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Monday, March 26, 2007
hahaha this is an important post!
yes. these few days have been absolutely horrible. but... there are parts which have been better than what i've had in ages.
it's finally starting to sink in that people care and love me.
whoa. haha many thanks to tink peiling yunxi waiian ben tiff ruth yuanting(though i doubt she'll see this haha)... for all the love and for caring and everything! every sms counts :) seriously i realise that these few days e smses i've received from them are super sweet and happying! really grateful for them haha.
and God... though i still feel like i can't see Him, don't understand Him, don't know Him... thankYou so much for chasing me down. and for moments like those.
ahhh still frustrating!!! but! there's hope :)
yea thankyou friends :) take care all! esp xiaolongpao! <3
ciao.
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Friday, March 09, 2007
haha things are getting better :) today was a pretty happy day!
because!
1. it was second orientation! no lessons hahaha. somemore thurs are usually long days...
2. my ki and econs tests were SETTLED. NO MORE!
3. i like my og. it has nice people. and today was relaxing. slack. i like. yay.
4. jeslin yiliang minqi are STAYING! yayy! hahahaha this one really made me happy. if they didnt get in i would be very sad. haha but they did! and yayy its just very happy-ing! for various reasons also. but :D
5. things are getting better spiritually. i think a bit little by little. its still very ahhh but its slowly slowly littlebitty getting better. still unstable but! still getting better.
hahaha yea i'm glad to be in rj. feel quite blessed actually. think its quite cool to be in a raffles school.
but i miss juniors alot. OHYES! the day they came to rj... tuesday! for vic's birthday! hahaha mannn i miss juniors soooo much! hanging out and talking and all... ahhh juniors make me smile :) wanted to go with them and hang out somemore at j8 but in the end i didnt. haha. but! mon tues wed next week is march camp! yayy so fun! hopehopehope i can go. then can mix with the little sec1s! and talk and have fun with the other juniors! mingleminglemingle :D
hols are coming... got holiday homework!
- geog essay thingy
- math assignment thing
- KI; coming up with "x"
- have to revise work ahhh.
i wonder how much i'll actually do in the holidays man. haha!
mmm. i need God. sometimes its tough though, cos it feels like you are on the wrong track, and God's not doing anything... and its frustrating cos then the lies start coming up, and those get you down. and all you feel like you can do is splash helplessly in the water. but! hmm yea there are so many promises for those who trust in Him... trusting in His character. and He is worthy of our trust i guess.
tired. struggling is tiring. haha yea.
haha heyy juniors i'm missing you all loads!
ah!:
God, I have heard that you are never late, seldom early, but always on time. When I think back through the experiences of my life, I can see the truth in that statement. Thank you for always being on time. Thank you for the lessons you have taught me through waiting, through suffering, through the storms and valleys and for your faithfulness always. Thank you for the rays of sun that peaked through the clouds in the way of a praying spirit and helping hand from other Christians. Thank you for the sun that shone brightly after the storms and cloudy days, and for your son who is my sun and shield, the Lord Jesus Christ. If you had always been on my time schedule, I wouldn't have learned much in life, so I am thankful that you are always on time according to your schedule. I praise you for who you are and all you've done. May I be found worthy in your sight through the blood of the Savior. In His name I pray, amen.
ciao.
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Saturday, March 03, 2007
"God, I've learned about how Jesus turned water into wine at that wedding in Cana. All Mary did was to present the problem to Him. She did not ask for Him to do anything specifically. She just said "we have no wine." Jesus stepped in and knew what to do. Lord, I come to You and lift up the people who are heavy on my heart. You know that they "have no wine." I am not telling You what I want You do do. I am just acknowledging the need. You know what to do. You are all-knowing and all powerful. You can heal. You can change the course of things. You can provide any need. You can do anything. I know that anything You do will be the better solution than anything I can think of. Please take these burdens...and work it all out as I know You can. Thank You for Your loving and merciful acts. I praise You, God, in the name of Jesus. Amen."
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.mmm. i've got stuff i'm struggling with. and rah this dog-eat-dog world is getting to me. its very hard to genuinely consider other's needs before your own... and the stress to do sth well, to make sure everything's fine on your side first before looking out for people... I DON'T LIKE IT. wonder how to manage it. nooooooooo. ahhhhhhh. itspossible. okayokay. pray for me yes? and i feel bad asking for prayer requests when i myself am unwilling to put other's needs before mine. ohwells i learn.but no. i can't let the world sweep me away.
talking to juniors is nice. love it when i go back and see familiar people i'm comfortable with, who i can talk to and just relax. its different in rj, even with close friends. ahhhh somehow there's this sense of guardedness. like ultimately if the going gets tough, everyone will be watching out for themselves. not saying its everyone, there are still a few people who you know you can trust. but sigh. i'm becoming like what i don't like. watching out for myself before others. i don't like it. i reallyreally don't.
rah. this sounds very emo right.
but NONONO. hil's got God. its possible to still genuinely want to bless others! there is hope!
there's got to be a difference between those who wear a cross on their neck and those who don't. where is it? sighsigh i've got a long way to go. am not gonna be going anywhere on my own strength. boooo still so much to learn!
i'm sorry for this post.
but for all those out there who are struggling... will be praying. God remembers you, all your struggles and experiences and rah-situations!
hahaha guess what song is playing now?
praise Him in the storm.
ciao.
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